(In response to my flakiness over the past few days: I stumbled a bit, but I’m by no means out of the game. I’m determined to finish what I started, so moving right along…)
A bit of introspection before bedtime is good for the soul, I think.
The first part of this post was very education- and career-oriented. While those two things are still very important and pressing issues for me, my attempt at figuring out my life goes well beyond that, right to figuring out who I am as a person. Personally, I see myself as one of the biggest trainwrecks to ever grace this planet. Seriously, I’m a mess. I say the wrong thing constantly, I overthink EVERYTHING, and I’m terrible with feelings. But all of these flaws (along with the many others I choose not to disclose) are part of the tapestry of what makes me, me and I accept them as such.
That’s not to say that I’m not trying to improve these things; That goes without saying. It’s just, I feel I’ve reached a point in my life where I no longer care to beat myself up about my shortcomings. I’d much rather accentuate the positive, than dwell on the negative. And when I do accentuate the positive, I see myself as a young woman who’s come a long way from who she was even a year ago. I’ve done quite a bit of growing and I reserve the right to take pride in that fact.
So, while I’m still working on the never-ending process of figuring out who I am, I’m much more content with what I already know.