No, Mom

(Originally posted to my Tumblr on Jan 12, 2011.)

No, Mom, I didn’t wash the dishes.
Sorry that bothers you so much.
Sorry you think I sit around and do nothing all day.
Sorry I have my head in the clouds.
Sorry for thinking there’s something more, something better for me out there beyond the sky.
Sorry you don’t understand me.
Sorry you don’t even try to.
Sorry you’re a realist and I’m a dreamer.
Sorry this world’s been kinder to me than it probably has been to you.
Sorry my dreams haven’t yet been killed by the tragedies of life.
Sorry my dreams are bigger than any pot, pan, or coffee cup currently sitting in the sink.
No, Mom, I didn’t wash the dishes.
Sorry.

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I Feel the Need to Express

(Originally posted to my Tumblr on Aug 8, 2010.)

I feel the need to express,
To get some things off my chest,
To relieve some pent-up stress,
In my life.

I’m not trying to be mean,
But to keep my conscience clean,
I must be open and proceed,
It’s only right.

Now that high school is over and college is around the corner, I figured that it would be the perfect time to let go of some dead weight. Basically, what I’m saying is, there are people in my life that no longer need to be there. I posted a Facebook status specifically about this matter. It wasn’t directed at anyone in particular…I just felt that it needed to be said. My status read:

“It’s funny. I’ve come to realize that I have some Facebook “friends” that I don’t speak to and have no intention of speaking to again. Now that high school’s over, what connection do we have? What motivation do I have to keep you in my life? Just being real.”

There comes a time when one needs to shake off the excess weight and I think I’m there.

Forgot to mention…

(Originally posted to my Tumblr on Jul 10, 2010.)

Even though I’m having such a great time at school, I feel like I’m in limbo. It’s like, I know I graduated from high school already, but sometimes I forget. For example, let’s say something funny happens here at Cornell and I begin to think, “OMG, I can’t wait to get back to Tech (my high school) to tell my friends.” But, I’m not going back there, that’s not my school anymore; that chapter of my life is finished.

Though, for some reason, I feel as if all of the goodbyes I said at graduation were lies. They felt so indefinite. I shed not one tear, because it felt like I wasn’t really leaving, just going on summer vacation or something. When will it sink in?

I think Facebook and other networking sites are to blame for this. Even though I don’t see my former classmates physically as much as I used to, I still get to see into their world and daily lives unfold via the internet as if nothing’s changed…it’s weird.

I always thought that staying in contact with people and making the world smaller and more intimate was a good thing, but now, it’s just plain confusing.

With Your Words

(Originally posted to my Tumblr on Mar 24, 2010.)

Your words, like daggers, pierce into the very soul of me.
Cutting, killing any remnants of who I thought you would be.

Bold as you are, speaking, glaring straight into my eyes.
Doubting the fact that I can recognize your lies.

Lies. Like the stories you used to tell.
But, it was all a game because you knew me so well.

What I wanted to hear, your words would clearly say.
But no dice, this time, I refuse to play.

God forbid you took the high road. No that’s absurd.
You were meant to cause pain and hurt with your words.

February 29th (or March 1st)

(Originally posted to my Tumblr on March 1, 2010.)

I’ve always found the concept of a Leap Year to be pretty alluring. It’s just short of amazing that there could be a day that comes once every 4 years…and everyone’s just okay with it.

No one questions the validity of a Leap Year. It just is. I know it has to do with the moon and all that astrological jazz, but it’s still pretty awesome.

Having a Leap Year birthday is even more interesting…considering the fact that, for example, when 20 years have passed your birthday really only came 5 times.

And is it just me, or was it planned for the Summer Olympics to coincide with Leap Years?

Weird, but such is life. So, in 2012, I hope everyone enjoys the 366th day of the year by doing something special because it is a very special day.

Defying Gravity

(Originally posted to my Tumblr on Feb 25, 2010.)

I decided to stop letting the world weigh me down. That’s a simple statement. Easy words to say. Not a difficult decision to make. Yet, I know that it’s a challenging and life-changing choice. I mean, everyone has days where they just don’t want to get out of bed in the morning because they feel so defeated by the pangs of this hassle known as life. But, I don’t want those feelings anymore. I want to wake up and see the beauty of life, even when life’s ugliness seems to be overshadowing it. In short, I want to be delusionally happy.

I’m going to defy the gravity of this life and prove that gravity is really a state of mind. It’s definitely going to be a struggle, but I plan on taking life day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, and if needed, second by second.

It’s Been a While…but I’m Back!

I admit it’s been a long, long, LONG while since I’ve posted new content on this blog. My apologies! The past few (or 5) months have been much busier than I had anticipated, but now I’m back and ready to write. And I hope you didn’t expect me to come back from this long hiatus empty-handed because I come bearing literary gifts:

Later today, I will begin moving my more wordy Tumblr posts, here, to my WordPress! It just seems like the right thing to do. I’ll also be adding some of the other writing I’ve done and posting new and exciting material, regularly. Basically, moniquedeehall.wordpress.com will be up and running once again.

I look forward to sharing my work with you 🙂

-Monique